My journey thus far~~

It has been a while since bestie told me to put this up. Haha. And since I felt like blogging some more but I didn't have a topic to blog about, I guess well now is as good a time as ever to blog about it...Hehe..It's just some images of me before losing weight up to when I was about 58 kg~~ ^^ It's not much, but at least I can see the changes and the progress that I've made thus far.



 



Lol. The first two photos were taken at Arren/Tungy's Raya open house back in 2010. I was sooo round! Aaaah! Hahaha! I can't believe it XP. The next few photos are some of the ones I took as they year went on. I only started to lose weight after the photo of me in the cream-coloured dress with a white cardigan. Before that, I didn't do anything to lose weight :). It's safe to say that I made some progress, huh? Hehe. I am extremely proud of myself. Before this I was like every other year, making new year's resolution to lose weight but never following through with my plans. But this time round, I decided to go through with it. I've never been happier with the results!

All in all it has been eight months since I started my weight loss journey and I still have a ways to go before I reach my ultimate goal. I wish and pray to God to continue giving me the strength and motivation to continue until I achieve my goals and I would also want to thank Him for guiding me and blessing me on my weight loss journey thus far :'). Amen Lord.

Day 4

I guess I skipped day 3 huh? Lol. My bad~ It was my first day of practicals so I didn't really have much time to post up anything once I got home. I was just sooooo tired =.=. Anyways, day 4 of my new diet plan has been going well :). I haven't been on the scales yet though. I'm hoping that I will lose some more weight soon. I'm still quite roly-poly (what my siblings and say when we meant round, XD). I just hope to be 55 kg by the end of this month if possible. My long term goal is 48 kg and I know that it is a pretty small number considering I was 74 kg before, but you either go big or go home right? :D But of course I will be taking other things into consideration too. Like if I am satisfied with myself at 50 kg then I'll stop there. ^^. My waist measurement is still 27.5 inches and I am hoping to be 25 inches at the end of this weight loss journey. 

Wish me luck! :D

My true self?

Hmm...To be honest, I'm not quite sure what I should write about here. Haha. I mean, lately I've been very confused over a couple of things. I don't usually share my true self with many around me for fear of getting hurt. I don't pain be it emotional or physical. So i put up this shell or barrier around me, putting up a tough front so that people won't get close to me to hurt me. Huhu. I've always been this way ever since I was a kid. Having to pretend to smile at home in front of my family members even though inside I just felt like dying :( .

I guess growing up holding myself back from really letting my feelings out really made me into quite a sombong person to some. Haha. I've said it before that many of my friends' first impressions of me were sombong. Or stuck up. Gosh. I must be terrible around people for them to think that way. Haha. Only a handful of people will truly know how I actually am; which is very manja! Nyaa~!! A bad habit of mine that I'm still trying to change now...huu..

It's tough, especially when you grow up not really getting the love and attention that every child needs. Haha. Hmm. It's not really that funny but I prefer laughing it off than crying over it :). I didn't mean that my parents didn't love me but I was the only one that needed to do something to get their attention. Sure, big sis felt that way too. But she had my aunt and grandparents spoiling her growing up. My brother always had my parents spoiling him. So where does that leave me? Err, nowhere? Haha.

I guess my aunt was right. She told me once while fetching me home from school that being the middle child is always the loneliest. You will be the least loved since you are stuck in the middle; not as important as the first, and not as precious as the last. She had tears in her eyes when she told me that and her advice to me was just live your life and love yourself. God will be there for you :'). I still hold onto those words til now~

I don't blame anyone though. I mean I grew up perfectly fine (and pretty privileged actually, XD). So I have no complaints I guess. But I do know that that is also the reason why I get very manja around people that I trust. My besties know that and there are certain things that I cannot tolerate because of my manja-ness. LOL. Even Momo knows about it now. Oops! Hehe..Sorry baby, I guess I shocked you huh? ^^. That is also the reason why I don't like being ignored. Gosh. I am complicating things. I should stop here. Haha~ XD Sorry for the extremely long post~ I was feeling a little emo today~

Update!

I have no work today!! Yippee~~ Hehe..I guess my supervisor still wasn't expecting us to start work yesterday. Psst! She actually forgot! LOL. Well my first day of practicals was actually okay. Got introduced to the staff there, had a tour of the coffee factory and yes, was given the first task; make a product catalog. Haha! I feel like I'm a marketing major instead of a food science major when our supervisor handed us the task. Haha XD. The task is for both me and bestie. Hehe. I just hope we will do well on our first task and impress our supervisor as well as our GM :). We only worked half-day yesterday and were told that we did not need to come in for work today~ Whee~~ XD. I guess that's all for my practical update. More coming soon once Monday rolls around~ Hehe..

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